I'm sorry Dave, I don't know how you do it. I dont know how you're able to live with it. That person is like a brain tumor, it's killing me, really badly. Yes, you're right, if i were to get any reaction because of that brain tumor, I lost. But Dave, you know what? I lost. I can't live with that brain tumor here. I tried but i can't accept the fact that I have to live with my partners having to be friend with that brain tumor. I know my rights, and I will not force him any way, but I can't control my own emotion. I can't get the fact that that brain tumor had caused so many problems and yet I have to learn to accept it. I wouldn't even want to say he/she is human, cause it's killing me slowly like how a brain tumor will do. Why can't my partner remember the fact that he/she invaded my privacy before? Never help me when I was directly said infront of his face? We quarreled so many times because of that brain tumor. Dave, teach me. Stop telling me I got to control. I did, but my partner ain't helping me alot. Please don't turn me to who I don't want to be. I don't want to be emotionless. But like you said, this is the only way to prevent myself from being unhappy. I know. Dave, I am screaming so hard inside me, it's killing me. The fact is, I can't accept that brain tumor. It's a cancer and it's killing me slowly.